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[25 Jul 2004|02:48am] |
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"Ice" Remix
The Ice is thin c'mon dive in,
Underneath my lucid skin, the joy is long forgotten.
Hours pass, days pass, time is standing still.
Light gets dark and darkness fills my soul...it's all forbidden.
I don't want to forget you, I feel like I've lost you...
Only a fool...
I think you worried for me then,
The subtle way that I gave in but I know
It's all forgotten.
Tied down on this bed of shame,
Tried to move around the plane, but oh
your soul is anchored...
The only confort is a picture of the Rivers
You enter into me a Liar! Oh your wings...
All for what? I can take all that I can get.
Only a fool was here...
I can't stand your tragic time,
It's like your god has passed you by
Well, here, that's your deception.
Your angels speak with gilted tongues
You have no strength to squander.
The only comfort is the mirror of the rivers.
You enter into me a liar! On your face..
All for what?
Oh I'll take all I can get.
Only a fool was here to stay.
Only a fool was here to stay...
Only a fool was here...
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| Justin has lost his field of innocence... and he wants it back. |
[12 Jul 2004|01:30am] |
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Wrong Person Fatality |
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A time so haunting moonlight in the mist
lay me down Beside you oh as long as it lasts
from the river comes a figure drifting slowly by
trailing long the water, leaving softer than a sigh
softer than a sigh
All the feelings they remain like a still life
a dying swan song forever lost your cries of glory
The rain is falling down like silence in a shroud
when all that really matters left to lose
i'm all alone
i'm all alone
All the feelings they remain like a still life
a dying swan song forever lost your cries of glory
walking from the shadows, a fear of sadness grows
your heart is in your hand your knowing looks
Our time is gone
my time is gone
Swan's dying song...
By the shadows of the night i go
i move away from the crowded room
that sea of shallow faces masked in warm regret
they don't know how to feel they don't know what is lost
Lost in the darkness of a land
where all the hope that's offered is
memories of being taken by the hand
and we are led into the sun
but i don't have a hold on what is real
though we can only try
what is there to give or to believe
I want it all to go away i want to be alone
sympathy's wasted on my hollow shell
i feel there's nothing left to fight for
no reason for a cause
and i can't hear your voice and i can't feel you near
Lost in the darkness of a land
where all the hope that's offered is
memories of being taken by the hand
and we are led into the sun
but i don't have a hold on what is real
though we can only try
what is there to give or to believe
I wanted a change knowing all i could do was try
I was looking for someone...
As the walls are closing in
and the colors fade to black
and my eyes are falling fast and deep into me
and i follow the tracks that lead me down
and i never follow what's right
and they wonder sometimes when they see all the
sadness and pain the truth brings to light
Cause i can't see no reason
what is blind cannot see
cause i want what is pleasing
all i take should be free
what i rob from the innocent ones
what i steal from the womb
If i cried me a river of all my confessions
would i drown in my shallow regret
As the walls are closing in
and the colors fade to black
and my eyes are falling fast and deep into the sea
and in darkness all that i can see
the frightened and the weak
are forced to cling to the mistakes they know nothing of
at mercy are the weak
Cause i can't see no reason
what is blind cannot see
cause i want what is pleasing
all i take should be free
what i rob from the innocent ones
what i steal from the womb
If i cried me a river of all my confessions
would i drown in my shallow regret...
The worlds on fire its more then I can handle
Ill tap into the water try and bring my share
Try to bring more, more then I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able
Hearts are worn in these dark ages
Youre not alone in these stories pages
The light has fallen amongst the living and the dying
And Ill try to hold it in
Yeah Ill try to hold it in
I watch the heavens but I find no calling
Something I can do to change whats coming
Stay close to me while the skys falling
I dont wanna be left alone dont wanna be alone
Hearts break hearts mend love still hurts
Visions clash planes crash still theres talk of
saving souls still colds closing in on us
We part the veil on our killer sun
Stray from the straight line on this short run
The more we take the less we become
The fortune of one man means less for some...
I will be the answer at the end of the line
I will be there for you while you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance if you cant look down
If it takes my whole life I wont break I wont bend
Itll all be worth it worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
that I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
youll still be burning so bright
Cast me gently into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight
If it takes a whole life I wont break I wont bend
Itll all be worth it worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
And when the stars have all burned out
Youll still be burning so bright
Cast me gently into morning for the night has been unkind...
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| Hehehe *chuckles* |
[09 Jun 2004|08:56am] |
| scarter's LJ stalker is qualinesti! | | qualinesti is stalking you because a little birdie told them you talked behind their back. They are also prank calling you regularly! |
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| GAH! |
[26 May 2004|09:52am] |
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Toy Box - In The Night |
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IT HAPPENED AGAIN!
I must just have one of those faces. =/
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| Angel, Sarah McLachlan |
[06 Apr 2004|10:03am] |
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spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
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| Yarrr |
[16 Mar 2004|11:58am] |
My Immortal.Your Lyrics
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
What Evanescence song are you?
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| Hrmm |
[05 Mar 2004|12:00pm] |
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You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own.
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Interesting. Anyway I'm off to home (homeward bound?) I guess.
With Love
Justin
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| 1,000 Words |
[25 Feb 2004|12:07pm] |
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I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me, not that easily.
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me, far too easily.
"Save your tears, 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turned back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart!
Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words, 1000 confessions
Will cradle you, making all of the pain
You feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever!
The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say:
"Wait for me, I'll write you letters."
I could see how you stared with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore
To hide the doubt when I turned back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough to know, it's not too late.
'Cause a thousand words
Called out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see
I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
Oh, a thousand words, 1000 embraces
Will cradle you, making all of
Your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever!
Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home
And back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings, oh!
And a thousand words
Called out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the loneliness to holy days
They'll hold you forever!
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[23 Feb 2004|10:10am] |
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Code Crush - ??? |
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Face longing, an endless mad desire was created in this place
What's true, what's false, this overflowing information I don't understand has
caught us, cornered us, again today I'm tested
by the unpainted face of a street filled with sadness
in buried by a crowd on the edge of a street understanding
A crowd of people all making the same face, will someone again come to understand?
Let's confront it! All of your love, a few wishes, hold them tight!
I'm going, this thirsty heart is surely in paradise
Before the you who seems to be reaching your hands out towards "giving up" and "the end" is
at least- to warm someone's heart, even if I prepare words, this place-
Nothing is hypocritical, nothing is meaningless, nothing is seen as powerlessness
I know of many nights sleeping while wearing my disappointment
But even that, even if you make me listen while crying
Confront it! The thing you must crossover, that's surely
Too afraid, you're own heart is pushed to the limit
So, everyone, grasp your right to freedom and happiness
But "surely" and "more" is something I must change
Let's confront it! All of your love, a few realities, hold them tight!
I'm singing, this puzzlement overflows and conceals
Disorder is increasing in this era, it all seems so illogical and
made to shane out into that and before we go
Yes, CODE CRUSH
*Shrug*
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| You know, one of those things. |
[20 Feb 2004|11:18am] |
Favorites
Color:Teal and Black.
Shape:Diamond.
Name(Boy/Girl):Casey/Shara
Place:Some forest somewhere...
Actor/Actress:Alice Kridge
Friend(Best or whatever):Don't got one. I don't play favorites, k?
Class(If App.):Never had a favorite class.
Site(Web):MTV.com/Homestarrunner.com
Song:1,000 Words (FFX-2 OST/Koda Kumi)...Yeah I know. I change it a lot. =]-
Aside from the usual...not much new. I've been playing FFX-2 like notha, and I'm around completing it. I'm at lv. 50+ atm, (I think) And I have once again changed my mind as for my favorite dress sphere/class. I LOVE Beserker. Rikku is so cute in a furry outty! *Puurrrs* Heheh. So tight.
^^; Hehehe yeah anyway, back to reality. I just got done taking 2 tests, one for Ethics and the other for Econ. Considering I got a huge F on the first Ethics Exam, I was up rather early this morning studying. (5AM *gasp* =p) And my grades have been going on a downward spiral for ethics: 85/75/65/55...and I just took this one, so we'll see. ^^;;;
Things are going ok though. I had to sit down and figure my classes out for next quarter (already for Yevon's sake!...[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<_<>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Favorites Color:Teal and Black. Shape:Diamond. Name(Boy/Girl):Casey/Shara Place:Some forest somewhere... Actor/Actress:Alice Kridge Friend(Best or whatever):Don't got one. I don't play favorites, k? Class(If App.):Never had a favorite class. Site(Web):MTV.com/Homestarrunner.com Song:1,000 Words (FFX-2 OST/Koda Kumi)...Yeah I know. I change it a lot. =]- Aside from the usual...not much new. I've been playing FFX-2 like notha, and I'm around completing it. I'm at lv. 50+ atm, (I think) And I have once again changed my mind as for my favorite dress sphere/class. I LOVE Beserker. Rikku is so cute in a furry outty! *Puurrrs* Heheh. So tight. ^^; Hehehe yeah anyway, back to reality. I just got done taking 2 tests, one for Ethics and the other for Econ. Considering I got a huge F on the first Ethics Exam, I was up rather early this morning studying. (5AM *gasp* =p) And my grades have been going on a downward spiral for ethics: 85/75/65/55...and I just took this one, so we'll see. ^^;;; Things are going ok though. I had to sit down and figure my classes out for next quarter (already for Yevon's sake!...<_< >_> *Does the: Praise be to yevon, thing. ..yeah* =pp) and it looks like I might get into Bio tech soon. One of my many passions: Bio Technology. 8-) Will be tight, to say the least. Love Slade .....Alrighty, back to your lives now, there is nothing more to read! Shu! ......Still there eh? KAZAM a quiz for you! You are the blue moonlight. You are peaceful and<br>serene, kind and loving. Your heart never<br>stears you wrong. You let out uncertainess with<br>tears, and you let out fear with light. The<br>blue light means distance. You are afraid to<br>get to close to people. You have been betrayed<br>once before and can't do it again. Your dream<br>job could consist of a counsler or a traveler.<br>You love humanity and lonliness. You will have<br>love in your life and will never pass by<br>unnoticed. Your beauty attracts many, but your<br>personality is rare. The uniqness in your mind<br>will always separate you. You can always find<br>yourself lingering near the ocean, thinking<br>about life. Your head seem to be up in the<br>clouds, though you body is down on Earth. You<br>change and each time come back a better person.<br>The blue moonliht will always guide to safety<br>in the darkest hour. <br><br><font size="-1"><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Rainingmoonlight/quizzes/What%20shade%20of%20moonlight%20are%20you%3F%20(Boys%20or%20Girls)/">What shade of moonlight are you? (Boys or Girls)</a></font><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> |
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| Existence |
[02 Feb 2004|11:50am] |
You come into the threshold of another starless night of fear
You're running from the "demons" that would drag you down again
Illusions of the world are spinning out of time and frame and syncranicity
You're so sad
You're such a sad-eyed girl
You're so sad in your sub-plot
What is this, what is this, this mess of my existence is
All these politics of life and death and relevance
It's my existence
Another morning it comes running up your bedpost with the wind
You face yourself just like you always do, time and time again
The mortal coil of image, inner peace and satisfaction
And so you keep it on the down-low
Hiding all the secrets that are down below
And so you keep it on the down-low
Tell me baby was it worth it all
Wassup Girl
It's my turn
You cry and your eyes burn
What's your life's turn
Beautiful girl
Who all the guys yearn
What's more to your story
You still learn
Despite why your eyes burn
Soul-Searchin'
I seek and find the ole merchant
The high beacon
Your eyes talk
When you ain't speakin
And at school
You cry out
Why does water deep dry out?
Your getting gyped
Flat out
Oh just take it all, make it work and make some sense
Just take it all,
You're my existence
You're my existence
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| Turning Point |
[10 Dec 2003|09:48pm] |
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Several things have happend this past week that I've been able to sort through easier then most. First being that I have ended my fall quarter at Pierce, and will start up the Winter quarter in early January. At that time I will be taking Nutrition, Ethics and Social Problems related courses. I intend to have a steady job by that time; I am hoping that I am able to cope with the mental, physical and emotional stresses that would bring, but I'm confidant that I will.
As for anything related to "what's new" I'd have to say Kamden's strength to still deal with me,(=p) and a new friend, Danny. Both have gone out of their way to make me feel much more comfortable in life, and as a person in general. Kamden an angel, and Danny; almost like an older brother. Which is very much appreciated considering the hell that's been going on in my family and at heart. Things like my and my mother's seperate counseling sessions, the constant stress running through this family's veins, and my own self loathing and insecurities are driving me up the wall. However knowing Stephen is alright after all that really makes my life much brighter, to say the least.
Kamden is one of the only strengths I can turn too in times like this; considering I am barely just beginning to stand alone from my family and their issues. Something I deeply long for, is to finally get to stand on my own, and of course get down to Florida sometime SOON. Like asap would be great. But that won't happen till I get my job...which I am working on. Heh.
Oh yeah, I just got two new books (thanks Danny ^_^) Both by Christopher Rice, The Snow Garden and A Density of Souls.
Both of which I will be reading asap. Plus I stopped by the library and picked up some books I've been meaning to read for awhile, so I'll be busy over break ^^:
Micheal Darcher (my Eng 231 instructor) wants me to submit my play to SLAM (Student Literary and Arts Magazine), after giving it a 3.9 However, in light of his rejection (3.2 > 2.8) of my revised portfolio, I've decided to leave well enough as is. Besides I wrote the freaking thing in 10m; if I wanted it in SLAM I would have submitted multiple papers, but that's not going to happen. In his own words: "Fuck'em"
*Sigh* It's about 10:13pm, I'm going to get yelled at for singing on for 2m to post this, and then I'll hit the shower and then bed. Maybe a read in between. I dunno. I'll keep in touch.
Love Slade
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| Final |
[07 Dec 2003|10:12am] |
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I can't run anymore,
I fall before you,
Here I am,
I have nothing left,
Though I've tried to forget,
You're all that I am,
Take me home,
I'm through fighting it,
Broken,
Lifeless,
I give up,
You're my only strength,
Without you,
I can't go on,
Anymore,
Ever again.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
I can't run anymore,
I give myself to you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry,
In all my bitterness,
I ignored,
All that's real and true,
All I need is you,
When night falls on me,
I'll not close my eyes,
I'm too alive,
And you're too strong,
I can't lie anymore,
I fall down before you,
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
Constantly ignoring,
The pain consuming me,
But this time it's cut too deep,
I'll never stray again.
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love,
My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.
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| Yo |
[02 Dec 2003|05:55pm] |
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Evolution - Ayumi Hamasaki |
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you are mediumturquoise
#48D1CC |
Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.
Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.
Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
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| Yarrr |
[18 Nov 2003|06:59pm] |
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As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming of "What
If's".
What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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That's about right.
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